Alhamdulillah…thank you Allah… :')

 

Assalamualaikum…eh eh long time no see!!

wahh macam lame je tak membebel kat sini…rasa macam kaku pulak nak menaip…otak pun macam blank je bile nak mengarang ayat…haha…so maaflah kalau rase2 entri ni kelihatan agak skema ke ape ke…ermm sebenarnye banyak yg aku nak citer kat sini…there’s a lot of things that happened in the past 2 weeks…tak tau lah nak mula dari mana…

 

okeyh…just make it simple lah…actually aku busy sikit…tapi demi belog tercinta yg setia menjadi peneman di kala suka dan duka…dan juga demi readers yg sudi menunggu update dpd blog yg entahhapehape ni (kalau ade lah…^__^), maka terciptalah entri yg hentam belasah je ni..hahaha

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in the previous post, I did mentioned about some kind of situation that totally made me feel miserable and stressful…so, here I just want to update about my current situation right now…fyi, I managed to go back to my previous hostel, KTSN 1 which I really really yearns for..Alhamdulillah…Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah…my appeal has been granted!!  :)

 

 

so nak dijadikan citer, last Tuesday evening, I got a phone call from the office,offering me a room at K1..at first tu, aku rasa macam ragu2 sikit whether nak pindah ke tak since ofis cakap the only vacant room left was a double which is at the 4th floor…okey. kat K5 masa tu pun 4th floor jugak,so no difference la kan…but double room??hurmmm…I dunno lah…I’ve used to be in a single room before…rasa macam awkward la pulak nanti…hurmm..hurmm

setelah berinterview dgn org ofis tu selama beberapa minit, aku pun accept the offer…and then, I started to wondering : did I made the right decision??boleh ke hidup berdua ni??bla bla bla…ahhh…pening2…so, utk myakinkan diri sendiri, I decided to call everyone, my family and my friends, asking for their opinions…haha…memang tak boleh buat keputusan sendiri betul la budak ni…  =,=”

the results were all positive!!they all sume support my decision…lagipun, this is what I’ve been waiting and hoping for the last few weeks…and this is what I prayed for everyday…jadi,patutnye aku bersyukurlah kan…banyak songeh pulak…ape2 pon kemungkinan yg terjadi lepas ni, just accept it!!

cuba tengok orang lain…yg berharap sangat tapi sayangnye tak dapat…sedih jugak bile memikirkan cuma 3 orang je coursemate aku yg succeed in that appeal..including myself la..therefore, I should be grateful enough to be one of those lucky students yg dapat transfer balik ke K1 nie…

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so..bile nak pindah tu mestilah kena angkut barang dpd K5 ke K1 kan??perghh barang aku tak nak selori pulak…sape nak tolong angkat ni??aku bukanlah badang yg mampu mengangkat sebuah kereta dgn menggunakan hujung jari saje…aku hanyalah perempuan yg lemah tak berdaya…ececehh..ayat tak leh belahh…pasrah lah sangat…

tapi….Alhamdulillah…mujurlah ade kawan2 yg sudi hulurkan tangan ringankan beban ***dah macam Berasamamu pulak** utk bekerjasama menyeret barang2 aku yg banyak gile tu ke tingkat bawah…bak kata Wonderpets : bile bekerjasama semua jadi mudah…heeyyy Wonderpets!yeayyy… (tq Pikah, tq Dayah!)

lepas tu pulak…aku takyah susah2 nak terpacak kat tepi jalan utk menahan teksi utk mengangkut barang2 aku tu sebab kebetulan pulak memang dah ade sorang pakcik teksi yg dah siap sedia tersadai kat K5 tu…lepas tu baik pulak pakcik tu…dia charge murah je…RM 10 from Kg Baru to Jalan Temerloh…and then,bile dah sampai sana, dia sanggup tunggu pulak sementara aku nak check in & amik kunci bilik kat ofis…sebab masa tu memang tak tau lagi aku dapat bilik yg mana…

Ya Allah,terima kasih sebab kurniakan org2 yg baik ini…semoga mereka mendapat kebaikan dpd kebaikan yg mereka berikan…  :'))

 

sampai ofis plak, orang ofis tu cakap I got a double room but it was at the ground floor!!!can you imagine how did I feel at that time??aku pun macam tak percaya sebab dpt ground floor sebab hari tu beria dia cakap 4th floor je yg kosong…I was so excited and happy…and grateful of course…so takyah la nak susah2 mendaki tangga sambil memikul barang2 yg menggunung tu……

thank you Allah sebab dah permudahkan segala urusan perpindahan aku pada hari itu…I feel so blessed!  ='D

 

the room is quite large and decent to live in for 2 persons..

this is part of the room…(sebelum kemas-mengemas la of course..)but this is not my bed…mine is on the other side but the things are just similar…

and luckily my roommate is also my classmate…at least takde la awkward sangat kan…takde la bunyi cengkerik memanjang dalam bilik tu nanti..dah la aku ni shy shy pendiam orangnye…ahaksss…hope both of us can adapt with each other well… ^^

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now I do believe in this pepatah:

“berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian”

 

for those yg maybe kecewa bile ape yg diinginkan tak kesampaian, jangan mudah berputus asa dan terlalu bersedih…ape yg boleh aku cakap kat sini just be strong and try to adapt with the situation…Insyaallah ade sesuatu yg lebih baik sedang menunggu korang…I’m not bragging myself about this matter…aku faham ape yg korang lalui sebab aku jugak pernah rasa benda yg sama…cuma aku percaya setiap orang ade rezeki masing2…dan aku sangat sangat bersyukur dgn rezeki yg aku dapat sekarang ni…

jadi..fahamilah…jangan nak banding2kan aku dgn korang…jangan cakap aku lebih bertuah dpd korang sebab aku sendiri tak tau ape yg bakal terjadi pada masa akan datang…hari ni hari aku,mungkin esok hari korang pulak??  =)

 

in fact, I really really am grateful for the strength that I’ve gained from Him sepanjang aku stay kat K5 sebelum ni….even ade banyak perkara yg berlaku sepanjang aku kat sana, tapi alhamdulillah I can endure them well…

 

last but not least…thank you kpd mereka yg bagi kata2 semangat & praying for me in the last entry…I really truly appreciate it!!

so sekarang ni…aku kena reorganise balik hidup aku yg agak tunggang langgang sebelum ni…hope that everything will goes smoothly..

 

{ Rx : somehow, I feel that something is missing from my life… :(  and that is….}

Dear Allah,please give me strength…

 

Assalamualaikum…

serabut serabai down stress tingtong blur blank…itu yg aku tengah rasakan sekarang ni…sebenarnye mood nak update blog memang langsung takde…tapi entah la…rasa macam nak get these damn feelings out of my heart so that at least my heart will be at ease…hopefully…

I don’t even know how to describe my feelings right now…bercampur baur..kejap OK kejap KO…but don’t worry,aku tak sampai tahap kena masuk Hospital Bahagia lagi lah…biasalah…aku rase sume student pun pernah hadapi masalah macam ni…

tapi yg pasti sekarang ni aku banyak termenung memikirkan nasib diri…semester baru dah pun bermula…tapi semangat baru dalam diri tiba2 hilang entah ke mana…sebaik sahaja aku menjejakkan kaki ke hostel baru,semangat yg aku bawak dari rumah terbang macam tu je…hati aku menangis..in fact diri sendiri pun dah penat menangis…lol..cengengnye aku..gembengnye aku…pasal masalah hostel macam ni pun nak menangis??booo booo!!malu lah kau tu dah besar panjang…tsskkk..

 

tapi itulah aku…aku memang mudah sangat nak menangis…lemahnye aku…depan orang menangis, cakap dalam telefon menangis,kalau sorang2 tu jangan cakap lah…pejam mata je rasa air masin tu berjejer-jejer…aisshhhh macam budak2… V__V

 

dear Allah,please give me strength..

 

now I am staying at a ‘new’ hostel which I heard from my friend it was once a hotel…a long long time ago once upon a time agaknye…even the building looks old…hoho…‘luckily’ I got the 4th floor…mine is a single room with bathroom + toilet inside…yeah everyone got their own bathroom…nama pun “hotel” kan…but mine wasn’t functioning…idk why…??

so everytime I wanna wudhu’ or taking my shower or washing my mug or doing my business, I had to tumpang my friend’s bathroom…memang la dia cakap it’s okey…tak kesah…but me myself…I’m not feeling so good to knock someone else’s door for many times a day just to borrow the bathroom…ape yg anda rasa bile anda knock that friend’s door for that purpose and then you found out that actually she is sleeping…tak ke mengganggu namanye tu??tu pun kalau dia ade,kalau dia takde kat bilik tak ke aku jadi pengemis toilet orang lain plak??bunyi macam sadis je..haha..ni baru 2 hari tapi aku rasa macam dah banyak menyusahkan orang pulak…huhu

I just made a report about those problems..and hopefully they can fix it ASAP!!takde la asyik nak menyusahkan orang je…and at least for the time being I can try to adapt and make myself comfortable here…

kat sini wifi pun macam ade takde je…kalau ade pun netbook aku ni takleh nak connect..why??why??orang lain boleh pulak..musykil aku…maybe netbook ni problem kot…takpe la…syukur alhamdulillah aku dah terbeli broadband masa cuti hari tu…at least masa emergency camni takde la aku nak mengendeng kat laptop orang lain kan…even line dia taklah sehebat mana tapi boleh laa…patutlah hati aku meronta-ronta nak beli hari tu,rupenye sebab benda ni la…thank you Allah for gerakkan my hati…  :))))

 

tapi entahlah…terkadang aku macam tak boleh terima dgn keadaan hostel sekarang ni…aku tak selesa…semuanye macam susah sangat utk aku…aku takut,takut sangat kalau2 masalah hostel ni affect my study…tu belum campur lagi dengan stress yg bakal menyerang bile jadual dah mula packed,assignment dah mula berlambak,presentation,case study,quiz,exam bla bla bla etc etc..dengan program NPSC & thesis masa semester 2 nanti…I’m not sure whether I could bear this situation for the whole 3rd year…staying here for 1 year??OMG!!aku tak nak fikir banyak2 sangat,kang bertambah stress pulak jadinye…benda ni pun tak settle lagi kot..

 

that’s why I really really really pray and hope that my appeal for an exchange to my previous hostel will be granted…yup,I ady made an appeal…I hope you,who accidentally might be reading this post by chance could also pray for me,could you?? 2 weeks later,the result of the appeal will be announced and I hope I still get the chance to move to KTSN 1 back…in the meantime, what I can do is to keep praying and trying to survive with this current situation…aku akan cuba jadi kuat dan tough macam badang…tabahkan dan kuatkan hati…yeahh…insyaallah I can do it!!

kalau nak diikutkan aku rasa banyak je lagi benda yg merungsingkan kepala otak aku ni…nak listkan sume??tak payah la…nanti dah macam merungut pulak jadinye…no..I’m not blaming my nasib right now…it’s just that I’m in shock and it’s seems hard for me to accept it dengan secepat mungkin…I must get used to it slowly..that’s all..I know Allah wouldn’t burden His servants with something that they couldn’t bear..right??be positive and optimistic!!

 

I know..there are many many many people out there who got more serious and bigger problems than me…yg tak tau lagi dapat bilik mana pun ade…lagi kesian sebab terpakse menumpang kat bilik orang..even my other friends who live in the same hostel can stay cool and steady….relax2 je…I’m jealous of them…but what to do (ape nak buat?) I’m not strong like them…bak kata my dad, I have a small heart…yeah I admit that…kadang2 sebab masalah kecik remeh temeh pun aku boleh stress…boleh melalak..haha..pity me!!ternyata my EQ wasn’t good enough!!

 

bila tulis kat sini,dapatlah jugak kurangkan beban perasaan ni…aku dah puas mengadu kat family…nak mengadu kat kawan??ermmm they got their own problems too what…so kat sini je la boleh mengadu lagi…ehehe…but the most important thing mestilah kena turn to Allah for His help to give us strength and faith..indeed..lepas menangis mengadu pada Dia, hati ni rasa lebih lapang sikit…alhamdulillah.. 

 

 

hurmm sekarang ni memang masih free lagi..kelas pun baru start pagi tadi…lepas ni entah bila aku nak update blog ni lagi…banyak cerita yg aku nak pahat kat sini..plus idea dan materials yg boleh digunakan untuk menghasilkan beberapa entri dah pun aku prepare awal2 lagi sejak cuti semester yg lalu…see,betapa semangatnye aku!

tapi tu la…now,feel tu memang langsung takde…membuatku rasa kosong kosong ouu!!tenggelam timbul dalam lautan perasaan ini terasa sangat melemaskan dan memenatkan!sampai selera pun macam dah terbantut padahal perut menjerit bagai nak gile…kesian kau perut…kau pulak yg jadi mangsa…bersabarlah dgn kerenah tuan kau yg banyak songeh ni…takpe takpe lepas masalah ni settle,aku belanja kau makan sedap2 ye…hehehe

 

oh myy….tak sedar dah panjang pulak aku meluahkan perasaan ni…haha…ade ke orang tulis diari panjang2 camni??tapi aku rasa ade yg lagi panjang kot…aku malas dah nak tulis panjang2 kang nanti jadi Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa pulekk…

 

last but not least…

dear me, I hope you can leave all these problems here…please…it’s for the sake of your study…hopefully you can focus in class and not day-dreaming or mengenang nasib diri di perantauan or whatsoever…aku tengok muka diri sendiri pun dah macam zombie je…hohoho….

 

 

(Rx : terkadang kita rasa masalah tu macam datang bertimpa-timpa, dan kita mula persoalkan kenapa semua itu terjadi pada kita..tapi sebenarnye Allah nak kita kembali dekatkan diri pada Dia sebab sbg seorang manusia biasa, kita selalu alpa bila dah senang kan??jadi sebelum kita pergi terlalu jauh, Allah tarik balik diri kita supaya ingat pada Dia….macam mana??dengan kasi ujian la…so sweet kan?? aku harap sangat yg aku tak jadi hamba yg hanye ingat pada-Nya time susah je…I hope I’m not…)

makan-makan sambil shopping….again?? =P

 

Assalamualaikum…

last Tuesday, again I went to BP Mall…this time I went with my Along pulak…haha…kalau orang kat BP Mall tu ade yg cam aku mesti dia kata aku ni playgirl sebab bawak laki lain pulak…kah3…I’m 100% sure that most of them would think that my abang2 are my boyfriends…muehehe…I don’t mind pun…dah terbiase..haha

 

mula2 tu ingatkan nak bayar bil broadband je,tapi dah alang2 kan..lebih baik shopping barang2 sekali…bagus tak aku?bil tak sampai lagi aku dah sebok nak bayar…haha..alaa awal2 je tu…lama2 nanti dah sampai overdue pun tak mau bayar…kehkeh

that day, Along kata nak try makan chicken chop kat Pizza Hut…aku ikut je la since aku pun tak pernah lagi makan benda alah tu…saje je nak try rasa…kot2 sedap…

 

sebelum makan aku dok snap2 gambar makanan kat depan mata…orang lain tengok pun semacam je…agaknye dorang fikir aku ni jakun sangat la tak pernah nampak makanan…ehhh suke hati I la…I yang bayar bukannye uolls pon… **tetibe aku emo..wakakakahh

 

Italian Herb Chicken Chop  :  RM 14.90

looks tempting but ermm….sorry to say…I don’t really like the taste..felt weird on my tongue…rasa cepat muak…and it’s too salty I guess…maybe memang cara masak dia camtu kot…lain kali?memang I’m sorry la…I’m never going to eat this anymore…it’s not my cup of tea after all…lidah melayu la katakan…   (~,~)

 

chicken soup : RM 3.50

my life saviour!!nasib baik ade sup ni…this one is much much better than that chicken chop!!haha…at least takde la kebulur sangat!

 

iced lemon tea  :  RM3.50

air ni pun sedap jugaklah…tapi macam sikit sangat lah…selalu kalau minum Orange Twister kat KFC tu susah pulak nak habis sebab banyak sangat…yg ni baru sedut2 eh eh dah habis…lol

abang aku minum Assam Boi Fizz : RM 5.20…mahalnye!dia kata tak sedap sebab rasa macam air gas..memang pun la…kan air tu campur dgn 7Up..haha..

 

lepas makan mestilah kena sambung aktiviti yg tergendala tadi…kali ni banyak jugak duit melayang sebab beli banyak barang sampai kena bawak dalam trolly tau…cehhh padahal bukannye banyak sangat pun…saje je nak berlari berkejaran main tolak2 trolly…  =P

beli sehelai jeans baru sebab ade 50% discount!!muahaha…I love SALES!!!

 

finally jumpe jugak purse yg kurus comel2 ni sebab purse sekarang ni gemuk sangat la…konon banyak duit leteww padahal duit syiling je yg berlambak sampai nak masuk dlm handbag pon tak muat…yeayea lepas ni takde la nampak menggelembung sangat handbag tu…weee~~~

 

beli barang2 keperluan sikit kat Pacific…maklumlah kan dah nak balik kolej….tapi aku beli sikit2 je…dah serik dah…kali ni tak mau dah nak bawak barang banyak2 satu lori…lagipun kat sana pun bukannye takde supermarket…UO ade Mydin pun ade…cume kena menapak beribu-ribu batu sikit lah!!(tu yg malas tu….errr)

 

 

my favourite stores : Watson and Guardian…everytime kalau pegi shopping mesti aku singgah kat situ kejap…tapi aku laaagi suka Watson since it has a wide range of products compared to Guardian…tu kat BP Mall la,kat tempat lain maybe differ…plus I’m ady a member so why should I wasted this privilege??ehehh

 

and then beli stationary sikit..yeah that’s all…yg lain beli je la kat sana…comel pulak aku tengok notebook yg ade 3 color tu…terus rembat,konon2 semangat nak gune buat catat notes la…ye ye je…entah gune ke tak…   >,<''

 

sedar tak sedar hampir lewat petang jugak la aku bertapak kat mall nih…biaselah kalau dah shopping tu masa berlalu pun tak sedar…tapi jangan sampai lupa tunaikan tanggungjawab pulak…alhamdulillah…sekarang ni shopping mall sume ade surau kan… 

 

before balik,singgah warung jap nak tapau lauk paprik…haha…last2 makan makanan warung jugeekk…paprik jugak yg sodap kat anak tokak den nih!!!ekekeke

 

I’m not into yellow but sometimes I just love to try out something new!!memang rase mencapap gile dgn color yg terang benderang camtuh…   XD

 

 

okeyhh…that’s enough!!

err..err..since blog juga berfungsi sbg online diary, tak salah kan kalau perihal aku pegi shopping ni pun aku citer bagai nak rak??bak kata para blogger : blog saya adalah hak saya,jadi suka hati sayalah nak tulis ape…heee peace!!

 

(Rx : heii..hei…sape nak tolong aku packing nih??serabut deh…tak nak balik kolej boleh tak??sobss…    )

rindukan wajah yang dulu… Y__Y

 

Assalamualaikum…

today I’m gonna babbling myself out..

 

dulu muka aku macam Dato’ Siti Nurhaliza…cuma kurang putih sikit je dpd dia..kenapa?tak percaya?percayalaahhhh…kasihmu lama tersulam…di ruang paling dalam…terlalu jauh tak terselam…ku akui…dugaan datang jua pergi…rela ku menghadapi..dengan harapan suci..doa bersemi…~~~

 

okey cukup!!ape ni..ape ni…kenape sampai melalut lagu Dato’ Siti pulak ni??nampak sangat kepala dah mereng…ye memang aku dah mereng sebab aku tengah frust…frust sebab ape?sebab boyfriend aku curang!!okey itu auta..bukan fakta..harap maklum… (",)

>>>back to reality<<

I’m missing my old self…or to be specific,my old face…

dulu kulit muka aku boleh dikatakan flawless la jugak…maybe tak se-flawless orang lain tapi kire okay lagi la kalau nak compare dgn sekarang ni…problem pun takde sangat..paling common pun bintik hitam setitik dua..whiteheads pun tak visible sangat…jerawat once in a blue moon…tang berminyak tu je yg takleh dipertikaikan..

TAPI…TAPI…(capslock utk kasi effect lebih sikit)

I think since I enter matric (KMNS), kulit muka aku terus abruptly berubah!!kalau bertambah putih tu takpe la…ini tidak..it turned out to be a nightmare to me!!jerawat dah mula bermaharajalela tanpa belas kasihan sehingga meninggalkan kesan parut yg susah benar nak dihapuskan…whiteheads pulak mula mengganas…bintik2 hitam mula merebak ke seluruh pipi yg dulunye licin dan gebu…minyak jangan tanye lah..paham2 sendiri sudah..

ape salah aku?ape salah aku?(macam biase aku ter-emo sekejap..)

maybe sebab perubahan tempat dan cuaca yg mendadak..paham2 je la Kuala Pilah tu macam mana..maybe sebab air yg kurang bersih…maybe sebab pemakanan yg ikut-suka-hati-aku-la-nak-makan-apa…or maybe jugak sebab hormon yg meroyan tak tentu pasal sebab masa tu kan tengah remaja2 lagi…(sekarang pun masih lagi what??)…or maybe sebab stress belajar??okey itu bukan maybe,itu surely..  =,=”

 

after matric,my skin recover balik tapi takde la sampai kembali ke bentuk asal…memang taakk la kan…thanks to Safi Gamat, those acne-brats were scared to resurfaced on my face..takut kena karate la tu!!

but it just helps me to control those brats,not to prevent them forever la…after all,my whiteheads still go nowhere…those dark spots as well..I’m totally stressed out you know…even until now, they keep haunting me!!sobss..

before this I don’t even care about the cleanser-toner-moisturizer routine, but after browsing some blogs and website about skin care and beauty, suddenly my little heart said that I must start to take care of my face properly..

kalau dulu jangan harap lah nak pakai toner and moisturiser sume tu…leceh tau tak??yg aku tau cuci muka gune cleanser sudah le..tu pun dah cukup bagus…

now since my conscience started to grow, I forced myself to do that routine every day…secara jujurnye, I started to stick to those routine during last Ramadhan…haha…

now I am using the travel pack of The Body Shop Seaweed Skin Essentials for combination/oily skin..since trial pack takde,travel pack pun boleh la..

bile dikira-kira, hampir 2 minggu jugaklah aku setia guna set ni…ter-skip 2 3 kali tu normal la..kesan yg paling ketara adalah kulit muka less oily…I can feel the difference la but that’s all…my whiteheads still there…ughhh!!!

 

mungkin kena tunggu sebulan kot baru nampak kesan yg memuaskan…yup maybe…aku ni memang kurang sabar sikit…kalau boleh hari ni aku pakai,esok jugak kulit muka aku jadi flawless!!

TAPI…(tapi lagi..)

today I felt something is going wrong on my face…bila aku cuci2 muka, aku rasa pedih2 kat tepi2 hidung which is the place of birth of the whiteheads..bile aku belek2 muka aku yg dah tak flawless ni kat cermin, I found out that the whiteheads had actually dried up…rasenye la…they become more visible and when I touched them, memang rase macam kasar2 gitu…lepas tu siap ade yg boleh aku peel off lagi coz they seemed to become united…eh macam Menyu pulek…

 

aduhaiii…is this a good thing or a bad thing??I’m so confused now…can someone tell me??ade sesiapa tak yg pernah guna benda alah ni??please..please…I need your comment..desperately.. V_V

and now…I am helpless…hopeless..am I pampering my face or just destroying it??am I supposed to discontinue all those products?or should I just let my face alone without even doing anything to it?

aku dah malas dah…tak tau nak buat ape lagi..aku tak jaga ke aku jaga ke,muka aku tetap sama…no change!!I’m very disappointed…

or should I consult to a beautician about my skin?just to make sure which type of skin do I have…and does the products I’ve used so far compatible ke tak dgn kulit aku??sebab sebenarnye aku main bantai je cakap yg muka aku ni jenis berminyak…dah tu yg aku selalu rase… T_T

kalau dikaji balik,memang lah problem yg aku hadapi ni tak seserius orang lain,but I still yearns to have a flawless skin like you,you and you too!!nak jugak rasa bangga bila keluar ke mana2 tanpa pakai bedak 10 inci…wuuuwuuu~~

 

yeah…you..I miss you…my old skin…why can’t we be together for the rest of our life?sobs..you might not be perfect but still I love you,just the way you are…this is me : after SPM…  ;) 

 

(Rx : aku tak tau ade orang baca ke tak entri yg panjang berjela ni, but if any, could you please share your experiences/comments/knowledges etc etc about this matter?mungkin boleh share skincare ape yg bagus yg anda pernah/sedang guna??anything..your help will be kindly much appreciated!! <3 <3 )