Friday, February 19, 2016

How does your 2016 going so far?

Assalamualaikum. Oh hai we meet again after errr 4 months?

Well. Works are getting me preoccupied almost everyday. Since today is my day off, I mean there's no oncall for this weekend so I guess I just wanted to drop by my long-time abandoned blog. To clean up the dust here and there. (I'm pretty sure there're spider's webs everywhere. Haha.)

It seems like we're getting closer to the end of February. Goshh cepatnye masa berlari. Rasa macam baru semalam je masuk tahun baru kan.


So how is your 2016 doing so far? Well for me shits happen almost everyday. Pardon my language. Hah I'm literally 25 so I think it's okey for me to err cuss a lil bit. Hahaha. It doesn't suits my sweet-innocent-look tho. Well I was the so called Miss Goody Two-Shoes. Now I don't even care about the image anymore. Ohh nooo what has happened to me? LOL

Oh heyy have I told you that I'm legally my own driver right now?? Congratulations to me to finally have the guts to drive myself to work! Yayyy. What an achievement!! I'm so proud of myself! **self-pat at the back**
If you read my blog, previously I cant remember in which post, I did mention about my fear of driving. Well driving on my own just driving me crazy you know!
It took a freaking 6 years to finally have the courage to get behind the wheel by myself.

Even right now I'm just literally driving myself to and from work. But at least, there's a progress, right? You should be positive. And you should compliment yourself for breaking free from your comfort zone. You'd never know that you can rock it until you actually do it! Believe in me. I've been there, and I know how does it feels to be afraid of doing something that you think you cant. But actually you just have to close your eyes and give it a shot! Not that I asked you to close your eyes during your drive tho. duhh. *flips hair**

Look at how happy I am to finally be an independent woman! Hahaha. 



You know what. I kinda miss the old days. I miss my friends in uni. I miss my uni life. I miss everything in the past. Now that I'm a self-proclaimed adult, there are just to much to think. Burdens weighing on top of my shoulders. Never-ending stress with all the workloads. Seems like there's no end to it. I tried to enjoy myself, my life right now, but sometimes I feel like I'm faking it. Do you see where I'm coming from? 

Nonetheless, I must bear with all of them. At least until I finish this nerve-wrecking prp training. Only God knows how eager I am to get this thing out of my already messed-up life. Hah. Note the sarcasm.

And as a wrap, here's my bajet-feeling-model picture. Hahaha. You know I like to pose like this. Poyo I know. But who cares? I dont give a shit on what people will say. Ooppsss. sorry. =P


Yes. It's cakey. I know. Just dont judge okeyyy.


Okey, I guess that's it. I'm just randomly posting this cuz I'm kind of missing my hobby back then which is blogging. Blogging was once my passion. I just dont have much time to do so right now.
See you again, MeeLo! ;)

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Life's update. Hazy life.



and honestly, I still have no idea what the heck I'm doing right now. hahahaha. super blurrrr most of the time. =,="

a meme as the intro. just what I needed. hah!

Actually there's nothing to update pun. My life has been quite hectic and I'm feelin like flipping myself up and down continuously. Up till now, I still have doubt on my choice. I bet some of us got this issue jumping thru their Nodes of Ranvier. shoot takyah nak saintifik sangat kot bahasa tuh. macam la kau masih ingat lagi benda alah tu ape. walhal dose pcm pon kau nak tengok bluebook lagi kann. duhh. #tangandibahumatakeatas

If I were to write on what I've been thru for these past few months, a single blog post wouldn't suffice. There's just too much to tell that even words cant handle. There's time when I feel like being in a living hell. You cant even describe the feelings. Even after I left that place, I still got something hanging. Unsettled. #$@%!*&


Nevermind. I dont want to burden my neurons and my myocardium. I'm afraid I might develop fits and heart attack. hohoho. Sekarang ni pun rasa macam dah kena arthritis je. Sakit lutut tak hilang2 dari hari tu. hmmmm. adakah ini tanda2 penuaaan? T____T

oh yaaa btw congrats to kawan2 yang just tied the knot or going to soon. Sobs. nampaknye kite jugak yang belum bertemu prince charming. Memang tak la kan kalau hari2 terkejar2 nak fullfill requirement. Kalau kes TPN beratus-ratus dalam sehari. Ok tipu. Maunye aku kejung kat dalam clean room tu sorang2 dengan tahap kelembapan aku yang macam siput nih. 

walau slow macam mana sekalipun aku, I think I should be proud of myself. Yeah. I should compliment myself more for each progress that I've made. who else yang nak puji kalau bukan diri sendiri kan? bukannye ape, sometimes we need encouragement and appreciation in order for us to improve more. kalau asyik kena toce je macammana nak maju kan. makin stress ade lah.
Even tho in people's eyes, I'm still the lampi and slow-motion PRP, I know that now I've been improving. At least, kalau dulu aku macam teragak2 takut2 nak pegang syringe sampai jari pun tercucuk needle, now tidak lagi. I can handle the needle with my eyes closed. Ok tipu lagi. Jangan nak temberang sangat okeyh. wkwkwkwkwkkk

Dulu kan masa study, I was worried sick when I found out that I was the only student yang tak berjaya nak break the ampoule masa simulasi TPN. masa tu mula fikir macam mana la time nak keje nanti kalau tak pandai nak break ampoule. matilanak matilanak. And mula la aku stressed out masa tuh. 

seriously that was just a waste of my precious time. Sebabnye nanti masa kau dah start keje, kau akan automatically pandai buat semua tuh. Memang la masa mula2 tu kau slow, tapi sebab workload + pressure in situ, kau akan pandai jugak.
Macam sekarang ni, aku dah pandai break ampoule magnesium sulphate dengan potassium dihydrogen phospahte dengan vitalipid sume tuh dengan sekelip mata. aicehhh kerek pulak dia nih. I seriously doubt my capabilities masa mula2 masuk TPN tuh. 

and bile dah masuk minggu ketiga ni baru la aku paham konsep nak ketuk bubble out of the bag tu macam mana. Kau bayangkan la betapa lampinye aku. Memang aku mengaku that I'm quite a loser when it comes to hands-on skills. Sebab tu la sampai sekarang aku belum ade kete baru macam kengkawan sekalian. Heh lagi.


last but not least kan, I noticed one of my habit dah semakin kurang dah sekarang nih. ape lagi kalau bukan habit selfiefreak aku tuh. hahahah. kalau dulu pantang nak kuar je mesti sebok nak amik selpie la wepie la ape la. sekarang ni dah tak sempat nak fikir sume tuh. lepas tu sekarang ni pun tak sempat sangat nak berfangirling sangat. well tau2 je la aku ni kan minah kepop! kalau dulu gigih je nak search video kpop yang ade subs pastu gigih nak dowload sume kalau boleh. tapi sekarang tak sempat dah nak buat sume tuh. apetaknye bile balik keje je dah terbongkang tak sedarkan diri. hahahaha macam tak senonoh pulak cara aku describe tu kan..

somehow I did miss my old life back then. But what ever it is, life must goes on. Kerja tetap kerja. If I aint working, how do I get myself a plane ticket to Korea huh? kata nak jumpe oppa kannn. heheheh.


sebagai penutup entri hari ni, terimalah secebis gambar yang terbaru daripada seorang aku. kekekeke asal sasterawan sangat bunyinye.


someday I'm so gonna ride you merry go round. pastu boleh fefeeling Stairway to Heaven dengan oppa. ngeh3.

orait. so long my friends. jumpe lagi next entri maybe in the next few months? ahaksss no one knows. 

Assalamualaikum and goodnite people!

Friday, June 19, 2015

My new life as a PRP. Welcome to the dark world!!


Assalamualaikum. Ahlan wasahlan ya Ramadhan al-mubarak!

selamat berpuasa semua!!! heeee. 

Lameeeee gileeee kan tak update. well I’ve been super duper busy with never-ending works. yeahh you heard it right. I’m officially a career woman now. Hahaha. Woman sangat kan. padahal sumpah rase macam budak2 hingusan je lagi. heh.

So kat sini aku just nak give some sort of short update lah. taktau la ade ke orang baca lagi blog ni lagi. hahaha. lantakkk. yang penting aku menjalankan tanggungjawab aku terhadap blog nih. ecececeyy talking bout responsibilities.

last month, 5.5.15, I’m officially bergelar seorang PRP. or nama panjang dia Provisionally Registered Pharmacist. kirenye kalau macam doktor tu aku kire macam HO giteww. kalau amik driving license macam kau dapat lesen P camtuhh. eh betul ke? entah le. aku memandai buat analogi sendiri jee. XD
kalau nak ikutkan la aku nak buat karangan esei 20 mukasurat je tau pasal kejadian2 yang berlaku pada hari bersejarah tersebut. I must say I’ve been through quite a lot jugak la on that day. but nvm la. biarlah ia tersimpan sebagai suatu hikayat.

dipendekkan cerita, aku dapat posting kat Hospital Sultanah Aminah Jaybeee. one of the most busiest hospital in the world. ok tak. kat Msia ni la kot. hahaha. redha dan pasrah je la kan even tak dapat hospital idaman. yang penting dapat posting. yang penting tak bergelar penanam anggur lagi. yang penting takyah nak jawab soalan2 interbiu dpd mereka2 yg selalu jaga tepi kain kitewww. ahaksss.



nah muke talam dan cop mohor sebijik. hahaha.

sekarang ni dah 2nd rotation dah. kat Manufacturing. memang aku mengaku la yg aku ni memang blur and lampi gileee. what do you expect from seorang penanam anggur tegar yang kerjanye melayan movie 24/7 di samping membuat kerja2 surirumahtangga sahaje? sorry but I cant reach your expectation. I cant be perfect on my first time, and definitely I cant be perfect all the time. please expect some flaws in me. or maybe more. I still make stupid mistakes but I’m willing to learn from my mistakes. I know it’s my responsibility to do my job efficiently but just gimme some time. Insha Allah I will improve as the time passed by. ;')

okey that’s it la. tak boleh nak tulis panjang berjela sangat sebab kena buat benda lain pulak. maybe lepas ni dah tak dapat nak update blog selalu kot. ini pun kebetulan cuti je hari ni. dan macam free sikit. tapi malam ni kena oncall kat A&E. marilah menjadi burung hantu. **gugugkkgugukkgugukkk  <(0_0)>

p/s : huhuhu tahun ni puasa sebagai anak rantau la kitewww. cehhh padahal dalam negeri sendiri jugak. tapi still tak dapat nak sambut ramadhan dengan family. huuuu. orang lain sahur buke sesame. kite sorang2 je. sobs. lap air mata. hahaha takyah nak syahdu sangat kayyy. kata dah dewasa… =P


p/s lagi : tahun ni first time jugak kami bakal beraya tanpa embah wedok. baru sebulan lebih arwah pergi meninggalkan kami. memang terasa sangat kehilangan arwah. tambah2 lagi masa tu pulak aku tengah busy nak prepare untuk posting nih. memang emosi tak stabil sikit mase tu. tapi Alhamdulillah Allah bagi kekuatan dekat kami semua. semoga roh embah ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang2 yang beriman. Al-fatihah. :'(