The Unexpected

Assalamualaikum.

Selamat Hari Malaysia! Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha! Selamat Hari Kebangsaan!

Selamat ape lagi ye? hurmmm nampak sangat dah berbulan blog ni bersawang kan.

sampai aku dah dapat posting baru pun.

Alhamdulillah. Dapat balik hometown. Duduk sekali dengan family. But the problem is hospital tu jauh berbatu dari rumah. So kena la keluar awal pagi. Dan aku bukanlah sejenis manusia yg senang bangun awal. 

Dan lagi yang merunsingkan kepala otak aku ni is the current placement yg aku dapat. why why why why on earth aku dapat clinical???!!!! whyyyy..

I AM NOT THE ONE. I AM NOT. NOT. NO.

left with no choice, nak taknak kena hadap jugak. stress jangan cakap lah.

jerawat dah mula tumbuh subur ibarat cendawan tumbuh lepas hujan. sekarang pun tengah demam batuk selesema. 

I wish that I could transfer to KK. or at least to other dept. But I know, That is impossible.

I can only hope.

Idk lahh but I started to get lost. Idk anymore which path should I take. The road not taken, the road less travelled or  the road with no end?

I just dont know.

My Lord, guide my way and help me throughout the journey. Let me earn happiness in this tasteless bland life.

Sincerely, the human with no soul.

Life as a floater. At last, I'm free!!

Assalamualaikum.

Hai blog. Lama tak jumpa kan. hehe. well well sedar tak sedar kita dah nak masuk pertengahan tahun dah. And tak lama lagi bulan Ramadhan pun dah nak menjelang tiba. Akak2 semua dah ganti puasa ke belum? Hihihi. Mesti masing2 pakat kelam kabut nak puasa last2 minute ni kan. Sama la kitewww. hahaha. Nasib baik aku dah habis dah ganti. Alhamdulillah sempat. >,<

Baju raya dah beli? Amboiii puasa pun belum kann. Entah la. Aku rasa raya tahun ni maybe tak semeriah macam dulu. Entah. Makin lama aku rasa macam raya tu tak macam raya pun. Maybe for some people, raya tahun ni bakal menjadi raya yg paling best dlm hidup dorang. Some people bakal raya berdua, some bakal bertiga. Some kembali beraya sorang2. Some pulak still beraya sorang2. Hmmm. Macam aku, raya ni still single lagi la kiteeww. Hohoho redha je la tengok kengkawan semua beraya berdua, bertiga, berempat and so on. hashtag forever alone. T_T 

Actually, banyak benda dah jadi for the past few months. But aku malas nak cerita kat sini. Biarlah masa yg menentukan. Maybe ada yg dah tau. Whatever happen we must put our best poker face. Yeahh that's how I survived. I believe things happened for a reason.

Btw, aku dah berjaya dah setelkan logbook bulan ni. Finally. At last! After so much pain, tears and sweats. Officially a floater duhh! Dah tak payah nak serabut fikirkan logbook, assessment etc etc bagai. Biarlah markah cukup2 makan pun, yg penting pass. Idgas. *flips hair. If you know what I mean. Lulz.

So apa bezanya time kau prp dgn jadi floater nih? For me, no difference at all. Kalau kat tempat lain, aku tanya kawan2 aku yg lain, dorang dah takde oncall or shift watsoeva. But lain pulak halnye dgn floater kat tempat aku nih. Next month (which starts tomorrow) makin berdouble triple weekend oncall aku. Demmitttt. What the. Tu la nasib floater bila tak ramai new prp masuk. Haishhhh please la. Derma la prp lagi kat sini. Huhuhu.

I really hope I'll get my frp posting as soon as possible. As quick as the lightning strikes. I cant wait to return to my hometown. Hopefully I will get posted there. Please. Jaebal. Naneun, yogi, nomu shiro! #fingercrossed

Okey. Tu je la nak cakap. Till we meet again MeeLo!! See you, when I see you!

Mana tau, lepas ni aku update pasal aku punye engagement ke marriage ke. Kannnn. ciaciaciaciaa. Harapan tinggi menggunung tu. XP

gambar kite kawen takde, gambar dgn orang lain yg kawen ade lahh. Haha. Dulu2 selalu berangan masa kawen nanti, nak tema pink & baby blue. But then bila tengok emerald green ni, jadi fall in love la pulak. ehhhh. Hihi.

Gambar extra. Comel pulak Iman senyum camtu. Macam auntie dia jugak. ehhh lagi. ^_^

p/s : Lately, ramai orang cakap muka aku dah makin putih sekarang. hahaha. Nak tau rahsianye? sila pm. muahahahah. Kbai!

How does your 2016 going so far?

Assalamualaikum. Oh hai we meet again after errr 4 months?

Well. Works are getting me preoccupied almost everyday. Since today is my day off, I mean there's no oncall for this weekend so I guess I just wanted to drop by my long-time abandoned blog. To clean up the dust here and there. (I'm pretty sure there're spider's webs everywhere. Haha.)

It seems like we're getting closer to the end of February. Goshh cepatnye masa berlari. Rasa macam baru semalam je masuk tahun baru kan.

So how is your 2016 doing so far? Well for me shits happen almost everyday. Pardon my language. Hah I'm literally 25 so I think it's okey for me to err cuss a lil bit. Hahaha. It doesn't suits my sweet-innocent-look tho. Well I was the so called Miss Goody Two-Shoes. Now I don't even care about the image anymore. Ohh nooo what has happened to me? LOL

Oh heyy have I told you that I'm legally my own driver right now?? Congratulations to me to finally have the guts to drive myself to work! Yayyy. What an achievement!! I'm so proud of myself! **self-pat at the back**

If you read my blog, previously I cant remember in which post, I did mention about my fear of driving. Well driving on my own just driving me crazy you know!

It took a freaking 6 years to finally have the courage to get behind the wheel by myself.

Even right now I'm just literally driving myself to and from work. But at least, there's a progress, right? You should be positive. And you should compliment yourself for breaking free from your comfort zone. You'd never know that you can rock it until you actually do it! Believe in me. I've been there, and I know how does it feels to be afraid of doing something that you think you cant. But actually you just have to close your eyes and give it a shot! Not that I asked you to close your eyes during your drive tho. duhh. *flips hair**

Look at how happy I am to finally be an independent woman! Hahaha. 

You know what. I kinda miss the old days. I miss my friends in uni. I miss my uni life. I miss everything in the past. Now that I'm a self-proclaimed adult, there are just to much to think. Burdens weighing on top of my shoulders. Never-ending stress with all the workloads. Seems like there's no end to it. I tried to enjoy myself, my life right now, but sometimes I feel like I'm faking it. Do you see where I'm coming from? 

Nonetheless, I must bear with all of them. At least until I finish this nerve-wrecking prp training. Only God knows how eager I am to get this thing out of my already messed-up life. Hah. Note the sarcasm.

And as a wrap, here's my bajet-feeling-model picture. Hahaha. You know I like to pose like this. Poyo I know. But who cares? I dont give a shit on what people will say. Ooppsss. sorry. =P

Yes. It's cakey. I know. Just dont judge okeyyy.

Okey, I guess that's it. I'm just randomly posting this cuz I'm kind of missing my hobby back then which is blogging. Blogging was once my passion. I just dont have much time to do so right now.

See you again, MeeLo! ;)