Life's update. Hazy life.

and honestly, I still have no idea what the heck I'm doing right now. hahahaha. super blurrrr most of the time. =,="

a meme as the intro. just what I needed. hah!

Actually there's nothing to update pun. My life has been quite hectic and I'm feelin like flipping myself up and down continuously. Up till now, I still have doubt on my choice. I bet some of us got this issue jumping thru their Nodes of Ranvier. shoot takyah nak saintifik sangat kot bahasa tuh. macam la kau masih ingat lagi benda alah tu ape. walhal dose pcm pon kau nak tengok bluebook lagi kann. duhh. #tangandibahumatakeatas

If I were to write on what I've been thru for these past few months, a single blog post wouldn't suffice. There's just too much to tell that even words cant handle. There's time when I feel like being in a living hell. You cant even describe the feelings. Even after I left that place, I still got something hanging. Unsettled. #$@%!*&

Nevermind. I dont want to burden my neurons and my myocardium. I'm afraid I might develop fits and heart attack. hohoho. Sekarang ni pun rasa macam dah kena arthritis je. Sakit lutut tak hilang2 dari hari tu. hmmmm. adakah ini tanda2 penuaaan? T____T

oh yaaa btw congrats to kawan2 yang just tied the knot or going to soon. Sobs. nampaknye kite jugak yang belum bertemu prince charming. Memang tak la kan kalau hari2 terkejar2 nak fullfill requirement. Kalau kes TPN beratus-ratus dalam sehari. Ok tipu. Maunye aku kejung kat dalam clean room tu sorang2 dengan tahap kelembapan aku yang macam siput nih. 

walau slow macam mana sekalipun aku, I think I should be proud of myself. Yeah. I should compliment myself more for each progress that I've made. who else yang nak puji kalau bukan diri sendiri kan? bukannye ape, sometimes we need encouragement and appreciation in order for us to improve more. kalau asyik kena toce je macammana nak maju kan. makin stress ade lah.

Even tho in people's eyes, I'm still the lampi and slow-motion PRP, I know that now I've been improving. At least, kalau dulu aku macam teragak2 takut2 nak pegang syringe sampai jari pun tercucuk needle, now tidak lagi. I can handle the needle with my eyes closed. Ok tipu lagi. Jangan nak temberang sangat okeyh. wkwkwkwkwkkk

Dulu kan masa study, I was worried sick when I found out that I was the only student yang tak berjaya nak break the ampoule masa simulasi TPN. masa tu mula fikir macam mana la time nak keje nanti kalau tak pandai nak break ampoule. matilanak matilanak. And mula la aku stressed out masa tuh. 

seriously that was just a waste of my precious time. Sebabnye nanti masa kau dah start keje, kau akan automatically pandai buat semua tuh. Memang la masa mula2 tu kau slow, tapi sebab workload + pressure in situ, kau akan pandai jugak.

Macam sekarang ni, aku dah pandai break ampoule magnesium sulphate dengan potassium dihydrogen phospahte dengan vitalipid sume tuh dengan sekelip mata. aicehhh kerek pulak dia nih. I seriously doubt my capabilities masa mula2 masuk TPN tuh. 

and bile dah masuk minggu ketiga ni baru la aku paham konsep nak ketuk bubble out of the bag tu macam mana. Kau bayangkan la betapa lampinye aku. Memang aku mengaku that I'm quite a loser when it comes to hands-on skills. Sebab tu la sampai sekarang aku belum ade kete baru macam kengkawan sekalian. Heh lagi.

last but not least kan, I noticed one of my habit dah semakin kurang dah sekarang nih. ape lagi kalau bukan habit selfiefreak aku tuh. hahahah. kalau dulu pantang nak kuar je mesti sebok nak amik selpie la wepie la ape la. sekarang ni dah tak sempat nak fikir sume tuh. lepas tu sekarang ni pun tak sempat sangat nak berfangirling sangat. well tau2 je la aku ni kan minah kepop! kalau dulu gigih je nak search video kpop yang ade subs pastu gigih nak dowload sume kalau boleh. tapi sekarang tak sempat dah nak buat sume tuh. apetaknye bile balik keje je dah terbongkang tak sedarkan diri. hahahaha macam tak senonoh pulak cara aku describe tu kan..

somehow I did miss my old life back then. But what ever it is, life must goes on. Kerja tetap kerja. If I aint working, how do I get myself a plane ticket to Korea huh? kata nak jumpe oppa kannn. heheheh.

sebagai penutup entri hari ni, terimalah secebis gambar yang terbaru daripada seorang aku. kekekeke asal sasterawan sangat bunyinye.

someday I'm so gonna ride you merry go round. pastu boleh fefeeling Stairway to Heaven dengan oppa. ngeh3.

orait. so long my friends. jumpe lagi next entri maybe in the next few months? ahaksss no one knows. 

Assalamualaikum and goodnite people!